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away, his voice muffled. Thought I d killed you.Thought I d lost you forever.
You didn t lose me, I said. I reached out and cupped his cheek in my palm, pulling his face around
gently so I could look in his eyes. There was a sparkle in the deep brown depths that looked suspiciously
like tears. I m right here, I told him softly. And I need your help.
Ben let out a long, trembling sigh. How? How is ... whatever you have planned going to help turn
McKinsey Cullen back into a girl?
I got the idea because of something I overheard in La Bella Luna right before Thrash Savage and his
crew caught me eavesdropping, I said, settling back into my place in front of him. Savage was
demanding to know why Doctor Locke couldn t turn McKinsey back into a woman and Locke said that
he thought it was possible that the energy generated duringMabon night might turn her back.
But it didn t, Ben pointed out. And,Dani , we generated a hell of a lot of energy. Not just ... He
coughed self-consciously. Not just you and me but the whole pack. Everybody was ... uh ...
Fucking, I supplied for him and was amused to see that he got a little red around the ears at the blunt
word. Well, thatis what we were doing, I pointed out. It was a wild night -- everyone was a little out
of control. Molly says that s not uncommon when the Goddess manifests herself.
Okay, fine, whatever, Ben said frowning. But the point is that we raised massive amounts of power or
energy or whatever you want to call it -- I mean, I felt it and I know you did too -- I can t deny that. But
McKinsey is still a wolf.
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Because we didn t channel it, I said. In order to achieve a specific goal you have to focus on that goal
before raising the energy. You have to be aware of what you want to achieve and direct the power
toward that end result as it peaks. I don t know about you, but at theMabon ceremony I wasn t
concentrating on anything but getting through the experience in one piece.
You were thinking about how to get through what I was doing to you even though you hated it. The
bitterness was back in Ben s voice and he looked away from me, not meeting my eyes.
That s not true, I insisted. Look, I admit I was frightened at first. You were so big, so wild, so ... I
waved a hand in the air, I don t know -- almost overwhelming. And you know what my last relationship
was like. But when I ... when I offered myself to you, it was with my whole heart. I wanted you Ben --
neededyou.
He was looking at me now, and it was my turn to blush but I met his eyes steadily, unwilling to look
away. I wanted him to see the truth of my words in my face.
His brown eyes softened a little, but there was still a look of stubborn determination on his strong
features.
That s sweet of you to say,Dani . He cupped my cheek in his palm and traced my lips with his thumb
in a way that sent slow fire through my veins. But I m just not willing to take a chance on hurting you
again. Not even to change McKinsey back to her rightful form. Nothing is worth more to me that your
safety.Nothing. And, well, I just ... I guess I just don t trust myself. Not where you re concerned
anyway.
Itrust you, Ben, I told him, as I had earlier. I could feel the yearning coming from him in waves, the
longing to lethimself go and be with me, but his self doubt was standing in the way. I had to find a way to
show him that he was worthy of my love and trust. A way to show him he could be gentle while he loved
me -- that every time didn t have to be like the wild orgy of theMabon ceremony. Suddenly I had an
idea.
We don t have to really make love to do this if you don t want to, I said, hoping like hell that what I
was planning would work. We just have to raise sexual energy. I ve been doing some research, and it s
possible to raise power without consummating the act.
How are we going to do that? Ben s voice was flat and disbelieving.
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